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Ok I’m going to see if Tumblr will be powerful for me.  This is my mom.  Currently she is fighting lung cancer.  That hat?  $18 at Sheetz to cover up what she calls the skunk line of hair loss that is going  down the middle of her head.  She is going through chemo but still managed to go see her granddaughter’s concert and have a great Thanksgiving.  As you can see…through all of this she is still smiling…beautifully.  I usually don’t ask for prayers because that wasn’t something I believed in, but if you do, please reblog this and put your thoughts and prayers out there for her.

She has 3 daughters and 6 grandkids who need her immensely.

As an update, I just want everyone to know that my beautiful mama in this picture passed away on April 30th 2014. I miss her immensely and my life will never ever be the same.

mountains-and-the-sea:

curethispain:

curethispain:

To all the people who liked and reblogged the picture of my mom smiling through chemo. This is her now. She’s no longer going through chemo and unfortunately it’s not because shes beaten it. Basically it’s beating her. She’s remaining positive and we are living day to day with all the love in our hearts that we can possibly give to her.

As I’m writing this, I’m crying because I can’t possibly think of a worse person for this to happen to. My mother was most my life a stay at home mom but it never took away from her brilliance. She taught us that no matter how mad you are, you never leave each other without saying I love you. And now I’m terrified I won’t get the ultimate chance to do that.

My mom is the strongest person I have ever met and I truly thought she of all people could beat this. I was wrong. She’s still here but I know…I know deep in my heart that soon enough she won’t be. And I cry all day, every day…for me losing my best friend, my shopping partner, my dining partner, the person I called 6 times a day and then ultimately taught to text….for my dad who has been with her his entire life, who has had her take care of him and now taken on the role of taking care of her, who I’m terrified will die of a broken heart…for my oldest daughter who was partially raised by her, who looks just like her, who would pick her over me any day, who will never truly understand what she means to my mom…my other three kids who are too young to understand and who will never truly get to know what an amazing woman and grandmother she is.

I’ve completely shut down and I don’t know how to fix it. I truly don’t. And when the inevitable happens…what will I do then? Also i want to thank deadwillwalk for spreading the word. Everyone should see this amazing woman and know she exists. Please if you take the time to read this, keep her in your thoughts and prayers and reblog so others can do so as well. I want to show her she is loved

For anyone who sees this, my beautiful mom lost her battle on April 30, 2014. She was an amazing soul and will be missed by so many. If you shared or liked this, thank you so incredibly much. You’re support showed me that love is everywhere.

I am so sorry. Words are so damn inadequate. Christ. I am just so, so sorry. 

Having been where you are now, just 8 weeks ago as of today: the second week was harder than the first. Not saying it’ll necessarily be like that for you…I just feel like I need to say something, just in case. I felt like I was going crazy. A good friend of mine lost her husband 2yr ago to leukemia and her mom in Dec. to lung cancer, messaged me about a week after my mom passed when I expressed that, and told me - the second week is harder. It is. But equally true: the third week is at least a little bit better in some ways. The fog is a little less dense. 

Go gently with yourself in these days. And remember, it can’t rain all the time.

Thank you mountains-and-the-sea for your amazing words. This has been so hard and I cant even explain the situation that made it worse. I am so sorry for your loss. I know we dont know each other, but we can because I know I could always use a shoulder and mine is wide open to you or anyone else dealing with something like this.

curethispain:

To all the people who liked and reblogged the picture of my mom smiling through chemo. This is her now. She’s no longer going through chemo and unfortunately it’s not because shes beaten it. Basically it’s beating her. She’s remaining positive and we are living day to day with all the love in our hearts that we can possibly give to her.

As I’m writing this, I’m crying because I can’t possibly think of a worse person for this to happen to. My mother was most my life a stay at home mom but it never took away from her brilliance. She taught us that no matter how mad you are, you never leave each other without saying I love you. And now I’m terrified I won’t get the ultimate chance to do that.

My mom is the strongest person I have ever met and I truly thought she of all people could beat this. I was wrong. She’s still here but I know…I know deep in my heart that soon enough she won’t be. And I cry all day, every day…for me losing my best friend, my shopping partner, my dining partner, the person I called 6 times a day and then ultimately taught to text….for my dad who has been with her his entire life, who has had her take care of him and now taken on the role of taking care of her, who I’m terrified will die of a broken heart…for my oldest daughter who was partially raised by her, who looks just like her, who would pick her over me any day, who will never truly understand what she means to my mom…my other three kids who are too young to understand and who will never truly get to know what an amazing woman and grandmother she is.

I’ve completely shut down and I don’t know how to fix it. I truly don’t. And when the inevitable happens…what will I do then? Also i want to thank deadwillwalk for spreading the word. Everyone should see this amazing woman and know she exists. Please if you take the time to read this, keep her in your thoughts and prayers and reblog so others can do so as well. I want to show her she is loved

For anyone who sees this, my beautiful mom lost her battle on April 30, 2014. She was an amazing soul and will be missed by so many. If you shared or liked this, thank you so incredibly much. You’re support showed me that love is everywhere.

deadwillwalk:

curethispain:

deadwillwalk:

For anon who told me I don’t have cancer and I used Photoshop to make myself bald.

Fuck you anon.

This is what drew me to you.  You are so beautiful and strong.  And now at a I time I could use your help, you gave it to me without question.  You are an amazing soul.  I could never thank you enough,  And even if my mom’s picture doesn’t get quite your status, she’ll get the recognition she deserves.  Thank you so much for what you’ve done for me and my family.

You’ve got nothing to thank me for sweetheart, I hope you and your family are doing well and that your mams still fighting curethispain
Unfortunately deadwillwalk my mom lost her battle on April 30. We held her funeral today. I’ve not been handling it well. I wish there was a way I could thank everyone who liked or shared our story. We lost a beautiful woman, but she’s no longer in pain and I’m trying to remember that to keep myself okay.
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