To all the people who liked and reblogged the picture of my mom smiling through chemo. This is her now. She’s no longer going through chemo and unfortunately it’s not because shes beaten it. Basically it’s beating her. She’s remaining positive and we are living day to day with all the love in our hearts that we can possibly give to her.
As I’m writing this, I’m crying because I can’t possibly think of a worse person for this to happen to. My mother was most my life a stay at home mom but it never took away from her brilliance. She taught us that no matter how mad you are, you never leave each other without saying I love you. And now I’m terrified I won’t get the ultimate chance to do that.
My mom is the strongest person I have ever met and I truly thought she of all people could beat this. I was wrong. She’s still here but I know…I know deep in my heart that soon enough she won’t be. And I cry all day, every day…for me losing my best friend, my shopping partner, my dining partner, the person I called 6 times a day and then ultimately taught to text….for my dad who has been with her his entire life, who has had her take care of him and now taken on the role of taking care of her, who I’m terrified will die of a broken heart…for my oldest daughter who was partially raised by her, who looks just like her, who would pick her over me any day, who will never truly understand what she means to my mom…my other three kids who are too young to understand and who will never truly get to know what an amazing woman and grandmother she is.
I’ve completely shut down and I don’t know how to fix it. I truly don’t. And when the inevitable happens…what will I do then? Also i want to thank deadwillwalk for spreading the word. Everyone should see this amazing woman and know she exists. Please if you take the time to read this, keep her in your thoughts and prayers and reblog so others can do so as well. I want to show her she is loved
For anyone who sees this, my beautiful mom lost her battle on April 30, 2014. She was an amazing soul and will be missed by so many. If you shared or liked this, thank you so incredibly much. You’re support showed me that love is everywhere.